NANDOU - A BIRD THAT CANNOT FLY;A NATURE'S JOKE

NANDOU – A bird from South America. Un nandou. It has a long neck, and a body so ungainly it can only run along the ground.
This is one of nature’s joke.

A bird that cannot fly.

So I took its name.

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大自然开的玩笑。一只不会飞的鸟。Nandou，用名字来讽刺，一个出生就败得彻底的人。但是事后才发现，他只是一只不会飞的鸟。

我是一只不会飞的鸟。

我胆小，我害怕，我畏惧。我所有的内在都是负面的。所以我逃跑。用尽全力，一直在跑。我不会再看回头，那段可笑的曾经是我的伤口。跑，不会飞的鸟，想象有翅膀在挥动。带我远离陆地。

可是上天开的玩笑。到死，我都飞不起来。

有人说，我是悲伤的。淡淡的语气，淡淡的字迹都有悲伤的影子。
我说现在除了悲伤，多了份冷淡。

我用冷眼看，把心收起来。如果是错的，那就错吧。我过去不懂得保护自己。现在，这就是我对自己好的方式。不要用审判的眼光看我，没有人是判官。我只是我自己。

我像是一个心态，经历５０岁的老人。认识自己不容易，但是我的本质说我是个寂寞的人。我害怕，我渴望守护。当我发现我是这样的人的时候，我的本质就更加突出，膨胀。多么恐怖？爱没有办法寄托的时候，会像走火的枪。射伤人。

我也不是一直悲伤的。我快乐过，开朗过，乐观过。我有温馨的笑容，宏亮的笑声。我多么骄傲我带给人正面的情绪。可是命运被安排，我随着它的转变，我的世界也跟着倒转。然后我被遗弃。。

除此，我也像是一个傻人。但是这世界傻的不是我一个。傻人有傻福，傻得开心，傻得幸福。我像一个傻小孩，用傻傻的心去建筑我自以为的傻瓜王国。可是一次一次的失败，傻瓜都会生气不是？所以我生气了！不玩了！不再尽心建筑，我只懂傻笑。

我很会做梦，常常都在梦。快乐的画面，幸福的家人在聚餐，幸福的情侣在耍脾气，幸福的我。

是的，我是一个想幸福的人。

BUt i'm exhausted.

我累了.

" What do you want?" he said. "Can you tell me, Dou?"

I lowered my head. " I want to be happy. More then anything in the world."

"Then why don't you learn?"

"I am afraid,"i wispered.

"Of what?"I can't tell.

Your hand touched my shoulder.
" Then there is no problem,"you said gently,in soft.

"Fear, that is not a problem.Fear is something within you that can be put aside.All you need to do is will yourself to do it.Yes, that is all! And the fear will have to obey you. Do you see how wonderful that is? NOthing else in the way will obey you that way - not
other people."

Fear? I never fear.But could you tell the one i loved not to be as well if its not too late?

.......But it was too late.....